Tuesday, April 7, 2009

not taking it for granted

The line is darker today. Sid could see it without squinting.

I want so much to believe that this is it, and it will all work out, and nine months from now, we'll have our baby. But I know that it doesn't always work like that. God, do I know it.

I probably won't really believe this until I get a positive on a digital test, until Miss P goes missing, until I get the blood test from my doctor.

But for now, this is the best I could have hoped for. I am not taking it for granted.

2 comments:

Queermo said...

I have already told you, you will give birth to a male.

starky said...

Em says the same thing all the time. I keep telling here I don't care what it is, so long as it's mine!